Self therapy! is it a time where you blog to release your thoughts into the oblivion because you dont want to burden your friends or family and you just need to get things off your chest. I mean after all who reads this stuff? a minority few but the majority of people go about in there manic world doing there business.
So i write into a blank white canvas expressing my thoughts and feelings, trying to release my fears my concerns while in the process of solving them "self therapy!."
I seperated from my partner due to many reasons mainly because i was no longer happy ! Someone once told me that there is nothing more worse than been in a relationship and feeling alone than been single and feeling alone! That was where i was at, so i left. There was lack of communication he was only interested in what "anyone" has to say if it involves him. My work is stressful and times I would come home and want to discuss my day and only too often i would get "you work in that job so you put up with those people!" no compassion!, so then i would turn to "self therapy" and go through my thoughts and feelings in my head and tell myself that its ok, you are a good person you are doing good.!
I am a single mom doing it alone just like many thousands of other women, we are battlers we do our best and then try harder with intensions to lead a happy and healthy life, to raise our children strong with morals and life skills to guide them into adults. We give our last $ to them, I work hard and studied to better my quality of life, to become a role model for my children and to show them that dreams can and will come true if your heart is in the right place and you remain focus. Only to meet someone who has had the world served to him on a golden platter to say he knows what it is like to struggle! while he sits and waits to inherit houses and thousands, how does he know what it feels like to struggle to go without something because you know you have bills to pay and food and clothes to provide, he sees something he gets, i see something and i dream knowing that other things come first before that dress does or those shoes do. There is no hard feelings i am no person to judge but when the one you love & respect cuts you down and tells you that you are broke and you will always be broke becuase of the choices YOU made in the past it makes you feel like your'e nobody when you know who you are adn what you have become ! then its time to do some "self therapy" and assess you life, your love and your situation. So i left.
I guess my point in all this is, never stop believing in who you .No matter where your life and you life choices have taken you. I have many dreams for myself and my children and long to wait for my soul mate, my love, my life, my smile everymorning when i open my eyes and my smile at night when i close my eyes. He is around and our souls meet from time to time but we are at different stages in our lives and if our paths never cross well atleast i have him in my heart foreva as a good friend.
I leave this quote with you
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
au revoir et salut
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